Faith

It's like we've lost a week of our lives. In so many ways it was the longest week ever, dragging by as sadness and shock consumed our hearts and minds. But today, it seems impossible that a whole week has passed. We are so grateful to have the viewing and funeral behind us. It was a privilege to honor Haizer's life and to know how many loved him as so many shared their grief with our family. However, it is obviously not something you envision having to do for someone so young. I was so proud of Michael this week. He is an amazing husband, dad, son, brother, and friend. I am so blessed to be part of his family, and of this community.

Now it begins. The impossible task of getting on with life. It will be bittersweet. For me, and so many others, the day to day will be much the same as it was before. My days didn't always include a call, a hug, a smile from our Haizer. But, I knew he was out there living his life and knowing that he's gone will cross my mind many times a day forever. Yet, for others like my sweet husband, JB, his sisters, Kait, Zac, and his dear mom ~ every day will be different. Every day will lack that constant. My heart aches for this reality. My prayers will include them as they learn to navigate their lives without their brother, husband, friend, son...please include them in your prayers.

Luckily, we believe in something bigger. They say these times will make or break one's faith. I'd like to tell you that after this last week it is clear that is really all any of us have. Faith. I've come to see that there are so many who claim to have the truth, the facts. These sources seek to destroy faith and family. To destroy one's eternal blessings. There are not answers for all questions, there are not constants, to live means someday having to die. It's all about faith, the ability to believe in the face of "fact."