Haizer

I couldn't just go on without saying something about our loss. It is profound and real. No one ever thinks that they will become a statistic ~ especially twice. Not one that lists college graduates or multiple births, but the really tragic kind that no one really wants to look up. If you know me, you'll know my circumstance, if not...just remember that it only takes one pebble to send multiple ripples into a pond and individual choices reach many people.

I really just want to express the love and gratitude I feel for my community. Especially for close friends and family, but the little place I've always called home is full of heartfelt kindness and support. Sometimes life gets crazy and the world can make one cynical. However, we are so blessed to have the support system we have. Our family has been showered with support and love and for that we are so grateful. Everyone wants to do something; yet, they know there is nothing that can really be done. But, know that when we think we aren't hungry ~ food has materialized and we eat. When we think we are alone, someone reaches out. When we are busy making arrangements or too overcome, the caller id and voice mail keep track of your attempts to show concern. When we answer the door without make up or a shower...we are met with smiles and hugs anyway. And so it will continue until we will need to get back to the routine of our lives. And, unfortunately, little moments will make it even more clear how the life of one individual can impact so many others.

The past few days have been some of the longest of my life. There are so many questions that will never have answers. The wound is deep right now, but it will begin to heal. And, after awhile we will be left with more scars. There is also grief that will have no end, but it will dull in time. There is despair...and hope. There is faith, and it will carry us through.

Thank you.